It's dead week and it seems like so much is needed to be done before finals. 

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

I guess I'm not going to get over this soon but my ex brother-in-law brought a whole load of trouble with him into my family.  The first day he moved in he threw a tantrum breaking a dvd/vcr combo and the glass that it sat on.  The tantrums never really stop.  He threw a few a year, a list of them I can recall is a dent on the home rear door, a hole in the wall upstairs by one of the bedroom, almost busted a closet door, and screwed up the front door lock.  It's not those tantrums that I can't over right now but the financial mess he's leaving us in.  Ever since he left we have the burden of paying for the house, the 6 cars that we have, all insured, and we only have 5 people.  We aren't all living together so we also have an apartment to pay for and utility.  On top of that there's the CHILD, which is way expensive to take care of and also time consuming for everyone.  And the ex brother-in-law decided to quit his job and hide his address so he won't  have to pay child support.  I think I can get over that as soon as the financial mess clears up.  What I can't get over however is the fact that I failed, I failed to help him control his anger, I failed to keep my sister and him together, I failed to help them work things out.  But I did try, and I tried really hard, yet still failed and that is what is most devastating.  I don't think there's ever been a time where I failed and tried again really hard and failed again.  Not to mention that in other situations where I failed I could actually do something about it, here in this situation there is no way to succeed.  I mean to succeed would be to get my sister and the ex brother-in-law back together, work on his anger issues, oh and also there is the financial issue that I didn't mention here (he apparently has abouot 80k Debt).  As much as I feel like trying I don't think I can succeed.

Well anyways if sou you are reading this, then you should update your profile.  Phi if you are then I wnat to tell you that you should stop getting tattoos and piercings.

Church is fun.

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